After Christmas it will be 3 Weeks that I have left Gor. I am not really missing it at all, Its been stress free most of this time, but I still had some BS drama. It was for a short little bit of time, I made it clear that I am relaxing and enjoying my FREEDOM. I am not talking about the Collar I used to wear in role play, but the Freedom of being tied down to the sim and village.
I spend nearly 3 years of trying to make a better place for gay Goreans to role play in. I do believe that I have done that, but what I failed to realize that Gay Gor dose not want a better place to role play. They are stuck in the Cap, Rap and Release role play. I do know that there are gay Goreans who are fine role players, some do play in gay gor and some do not. I chose not play in the gay gor cluster, as I wanted to play with all.
We were accepted into the By The Book Gor, even that I felt we would be always in Gorean Evolved side of SL Gor. We role played with the City of Fina and Port Cos, they were very open to us and welcoming. Sure we would always run into homophobic jerks, but that is everywhere here in SL and in the Real World. The Funny thing I had very little problems with the straight folks, they have been open and welcoming. The gay players on the other hand was the problems, few case of reverse homophobia, scared into a BTB cluster so they left without giving it a try, and really the same gay gor BS drama. Really people when you role play a slave you are just that, you are not boyfriend or a lover. You are a fucking slave.
I feel very embarrassed and ashamed that I brought Gay Gor to the Tor’Mark Cluster , I was pushing for something that Gay Gor did not want, and that was Real Gorean role play. I will never will role play with the Gay Gor. I give up on them and let them do their thing. It is not for me I want better
When the other half of Kalana Fjord got sold, I was first happy that the village was saved. I really though things would be fine. Well, hummmm, I guess it is fine, but I really feel pushed out. I was told that the vilage will be kept the same. Slowly more and more of my stuff is returned, my vision is vanishing and all the hard work I did for 6 months all gone. It was like it did not matter no more. This has happen to me before, all the hard work I put in and all for nothing. This is kinda what is holding me back form converting my sim into a game of thrones sim.
It would be nice if I was included in the village, I know I don’t own that part of it but it was my vision, my layout and hard work with others. I am very good person to work with and I do enjoy and to work with others. I just feel so pushed aside like I don’t matter and that was another thing that made me want to leave gor. I am being excluded with the village but then still all the BS OOC drama is still sent to me. For get it, I am here to have fun too.
So far I am enjoying my Slcation, been dancing and meeting new friends. I am miss that part of my SL, time for me to be me and not Misha the Kajiurs/Thrall. I do miss role play and I do enjoy it when I can get it. Whatever we do for rp I plan in spending time on earth as well, but in owning a role play sim it takes a lot of effort and work. I am not sure I want to do that again. As it is I work enough hours in real life, so why should I work in SL? The funny thing, that is why I went into Gor in the first place.
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