Misha in the Middle

I am not a big avatar by any standard, nor am I a small one.    When I go to places where the bears are, they tower over me, huge and hairy.    In my mind they are just to big and over compensating.  I am not sure what for,   maybe they want to look like a Tom of Finland drawing.   Many do treat me badly, telling me I am a child and pervert.   No I am not, I like to be somewhat normal sized, I am not a gym rat nor do I want to be hairy.   Being over 8 feet tall, built like a brick house and has hairy as a gorilla does not make you more of a man, just a Slider Queen.

Today, I had a visitor on Driftwood a Femboi,  I was not rude to him nor did I kick him out for looking underage,  I should have though.  I was busy trying on demo mesh feet.   I IMed me out of the blue and said this is a dead club.  I informed him well it is not a club but a beach and homes, as I am not interested in running a club.   This is a place to relax and have fun.    Then he went on to bitch that I was to tall.   I said yes I am taller than life size but shorter than many here on sl,  a medium sized av.  

I told him I thought he was to short,  he then he replied no he was not and he was 5 feet tall.   I said yes you are to short for an adult male,  then he said he was a femboi.    That is when I took my cam off of the mesh feet and took a look at him,  yes he was short and had narrow shoulders and wide hips, very boyish.   I gave him the lecture of how adult males have long torso with wider shoulders than the hips where women have narrow shoulders, wide hips and short torsos.   He replied, exactly what a femboi is.   Well I disagree,   being femi is a state of being not how the body develops,  and femi adult male will still be tall, wider shoulder than the hips and a long torso like Andrej Pejic for example. See pick below and see his tumblr http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/andrej%20pejic

SL fembois are edging age play,   if you come to my place you will banned.  I do try to be open minded and try not to judge people, but if you come to my place, to throw insults to me about how tall I am, you will get tell you what I think and I will make it public here:   Yes, people are taller in SL than in RL.  I do think most are to tall and unrealistic such as the slider queens.  The Tiny Twinks and Fembois are worse,  they tote that they are life size but still have the body of a boy with little bald dicks.   I am sorry, to me you do look underage and unattractive.

Single

I am now officially single,  I really felt that way for a long time now anyways, even back when I was back in Gor.    I have made changes in hopes me and my X would have more time together.   I never really happened.  I spent more and more time alone working on the sim doing things for other people.  I started seeking attention from others,  I was having a lot of sex with other people.  I did tell my X all about it,  he was all for an open relationship anyways.   For me it was more about being sexy, being wanted, and having short burst of role play.   As for role play,  I got a new job that is giving me a lot of hours and I don't have time to get involved with new role play that will take a lot of my time.  It would  not be fare to the others if I can only be there to role play for a few hours a week.
sex was get a nice role play fix,  do a bit of flirting and have a challenge.  I think that is why I was having lots of sex with women,  men are just to easy to have.

I was together with my X for over 4 years would have been soon for 5.  I wish him well and happiness even it caused a lot of sorrow for me.    I will go on with life in both worlds and work hard.  I hope I do can find someone real to love me, but it is hard with the hours I work.  Many don't like to be home alone when I am working at nights.

Another Update

As expected my Real Life work is kicking my Real Life ass.   Not only I am working 10 to 12 hours a day with lower pay and i have to drive farther, I been working 6 days a week too.   I am glad I shut down Lannisport,  I dont need that stress.   I am happy with DriftWood, but I like to see the public beach more busy with people.   I have been slowly adding more stuff, now I think I have enough sex stuff for 3 sims, lol.

I have been spending some time at straight beaches chatting with the people there.     I am really not liking the "Gay" Places.  They are so quite and lonely,  everyone stands around like zombies.   All I ever get is IMs of people wanting to fuck.     I am finding myself getting more and more distant from my community.... sighs.

Been going to Gor for short bits of rp,  Matt/Ty and Judas have become active in Gor.  I will go back at times for some rp but I will not be full time gorean again.  I will not join a city, i will just go for visits

Update

Times comes and goes,  I am dancing alone at driftwood.   I wish it was more busy, but what can i do as i am not online enough to promote it properly.   I am very happy that all of the homes are rented out it helps with the tier payment.   Some paid months in advanced so this month I don't have to pay out of my own pocket, but i will have to pay more next tier.   It is ok as it will balance out.  it will be like this, some month hardly pay a thing and others pay a lot.
Been getting a lot of visitors, gay and straight, they all love the look of Driftwood and all say it is one of the best nude places in SL.   If they like it so much why not come more often....oh I know why.... the key to any sim is green dots.   It takes green dots to make more green dots.  I need to get a core of people to hang out but then it is hard to do that when i am working to much in the real life.   As for Matt/Ty and Judas,  they went back to Gor to role play.   It is what they enjoy and I understand that....sighs....Gor.    I went back twice and wanted out of it fast.   I am not ready for that crap and bull shit.     I wish there there was other rp that was kinda like Gor but not Gor, if you know what i mean.     As for Game of Thrones role play,  it is to small and underdeveloped.  It dose not know what it wants to be.
On a good note,   i was able to get some Hot N Hung relics for my beach.  HnH was the first gay nude beach in SL.

Hot n Hung Hut from the Original HnH

Misha is now 4 years

Another uneventful Rez-day... sighs....I wonder if I matter at all. 

update

Things are going very well,  I have rented all the homes that are up for rent.  I made some low prim rooms as well.   We will see if they are in demand.   The public beach part is still not so busy, but I saw some new faces laying about today.  I hope word catches on and we will slowly grow.   I don't want to have a lot of dances or events so it will be a slow in getting people to come and visit and hang out.  We do have a lot of things to do at the beach, I hope that will attract people.  

As for the turtle coast thing,   I still have no clue in who spammed them or if any one had at all.   A few people there never even heard of Driftwood nor was spammed.  I think the owner there is full of bull shit and banned me because she thinks we are competition.

AS for the RL work,  I am working lots of ours. I leave at 5:30 pm and get home at 9 am.   I am glad I closed down Lannisport.  I was making no income from apartment rents to help with the teir and I just dont have the time to run a role play sim.  Driftwood is perfect for me now

take back what i said about Turtle Coast

Well I can be wrong about places and I am wrong about Turtle Coast.  Well not all wrong, the people who go there is nice, but I cannot say that about the owner.... She is a grade A bitch.  Some how I sent her an invite to Driftwood,  I don't recall sending her one, nor did I send anyone to my Turtle Coast friends or those who go there, not even to Steffie,  who is the other gay guy who goes to the Turtle Coast.
From what I can figure out, one of my renters must have sent the invite out.  He is someone who found us on search and goes to Turtle and Wild Coast.   He is a nice guy and I think he did not do that to harm anyone.
I did talk to the owner of the Coasts when I was righting this.  I got unbanned but I demanded a refund from joining the groups. 500 lindens to join turtle and 450 to join wild.  she would give me only the 500 back. I am ok with that as I did enjoy myself there.   She wanted an apology which i would not give,  i don't like being accused of something i did not do.  Then she said it was someone of my Staff,  I know my Staff and they would not go there let alone spend 500 lindens to join that group.   I think the Turtle Coast owner dose not like completion and to say i spammed her group is nothing but bull shit and a lie.
To all my turtle friends,  I like to say thank you for being kind to me and I had lots of fun there, but I will never be back.  I don't go to places where I am not welcomed.

added a bit later
A little bit later she came back to me saying I was rude to her in off line IM,  which I was.  I did say 'screw you'   in the off line because I was being accused of something I did not do, nor did she talk to me in person before banning and booting me from the sim.  This Sim owner is nothing but another sim owning ass hole who thinks they are better than every one else.   She had the pleasure of throwing at my face that i am now banned from 26 sim that are some of the busiest ones of SL for 5 years.   Let me tell you this Miss Sim Owner,  you are not better than everyone else,  you are just another bitch who thinks she is better than everyone else.    I say to you, you can take your fucking 26 sims and stick them where the sun dont shine,  oh wait the sun shines there too.    Well stick them up where a man has never been in!

1st Party at DriftWood

We had our first of I hope of many parties, but not something that is a weekly or monthly events.  I rathers have parties for special occasions.   Rez day or Brithday Parties,  Parties to celibate something of importance,  I just don't to have dances and events to help drive traffic up, That is something I dont want to worry about.  I dont feel like i have to be here all the time having events.  I have did that and really maded me go to Gor and hide.  

DriftWood is for relaxing, to slow down and enjoy your friends and loved ones, by playing games, making love, watching a movie, and yes dancing if one wishes

New to Driftwood

Things are going great,   out of my nine rentals I only have 3 left.  What makes me very happy it is a mixed crowed,  We have 3 gay renters and 3 straight,   I always liked a mix of people as long they are open minded.

I have few new things in Driftwood, one is a radio and the other is a movie theater kinda.

The Radio i have set for anyone to use.  so they can change up the music.  I don't ever plan on this in being a supper busy sim, nor a club that hosts many events.  It is a place to relax and have a good time with no pressure.  Mostly no pressure on me.


Radio:

The Radio is located in the DJ booth at the Dance area.   The Dance area is more for occasional parties mostly for the residents on the sim.

Driftwood Movie Theater,   one thing i missed a lot was having a movie night with loved ones and friends.  We plan on having movie nights and I just got two new movies, The Grey and Immortals.  The Screen its self is over the water and the lever is in the tiki bar with the DVD player that is loaded with movies and shows. 

Screen over water:

DVD Player and Screen Lever in the Tiki Bar:

Everyone is welcome to watch a movie anytime they want,  just remember to drop the screen when done.   It is best to set your viewer at night to watch, oh don't forget to watch naked.

The last thing,  I have added a security orb,  it will send home anyone who is under 30 days old and who is under 6 feet tall, (2.8 meters, I think).  This is for added grifer protection and to help to keep child avatars out.  If you are an adult and under 6 feet,  I am sorry but people are tall in SL,  I think it is because of the lower gravity here.   

Pictures of DriftWood

Its been two weeks that I closed down Lannisport and built DriftWood (DW). The only thing I have left to build it is our home. I have made 9 rentals and already I have 4 rented out and maybe another, the main issue is weather to take a big rental or a small one. This coming Sunday I will have a grand opening which include open house and dance party. Here is some pics of the sim.




DW Residental area:

The most front home is the big 999 prim lot and the small 500 prim lots next to them. the building in the back is our home. With them all rented it will pay for about 2/3th of the sim. I wanted to make something modern for a change.




DW Beach:









A nice sized beach area, there is a bar, fire pit, dance area, and loungers to sun yourself with. I know that there is an area for dancing, but I don't want to be a club or have regular events. It is a place for special parties, such as Rez days or Birthdays and the such, mostly for residential use. There is a sex bed at the Tiki bar, the only sex thing on the beach part.







DW Kelp Forest:









This is mostly for swimming and my friend Abir so she can be a mermaid, I am more than sure that she will take this over from me. We also have two free swimming dolphins a Mama and a Baby, to be named later. I am sure Abir will take good care of them.




DW Dolphins:












DW Falls:









These are the same falls I used in Kalana Falls and Hirmgar Village. i just love them, they are stunning and dose not take a lot of space. I have a few sex poses and shower animations. I am up at top mediating.




DM Humping Cave:









This is right behind the cave, it is great space behind the falls, have water over head that is water source for the falls. I just hate when people that have waterfalls with now lakes are rivers feeding the falls. As the name suggests a lot of sex stuff here.


DM Gaming Area:












Not only do I like being naked and being naughty, I also like playing games and playing naked it fun too. here we do have Greedy Greedy, Zyngo, and Texas Hold'em. Oh I forgot to mention there is 7seas fishing at the kelp forest too. If you are lucky or unlucky you can catch my friend Abir in her mermaid AV.




DM Romance Area:









This place is for people who wish to have a romantic time. Not only some sexy stuff here but there is slow dancing and a picnic blanket too. If one was to adjust their viewer to sunset, it is rather stunning. It is the second highest point in the sim.




DM Mountian Top Hot Tub:









This is the highest point and gives 360 of awesome view of the whole sim. Nice Cuddles and Sex poses as well a great message table (matt) from Blue Balls. The steam is a nice effect but it will lag those with not good computers or gaphic cards, a simple fix is to turn down or off your particles.







DM Prirate Cave:









The Pirate Cave are for those who like a little bit harder and ruff sex. There is some bondage stuff as well. To bad we will not be running into Johnny Depp in there, well it is not like I want to have sex with Capt. Jack Sparrow.

Well that is the main parts of the sim. I have plans to do something inside of the moon. A build area most likey. I hope many will come and enjoy the place, be friendly, and to have open chat.

Driftwood

Driftwood Island Estates and Resort is my new project, its not a rp sim but a residential and beach that is for All Gay, Lesbian, Straight, Bi, Transgender, and Non-Human Adult Avs.  The beach part is open to everyone,  clothing optional and there is a lot of hidden and not so hidden sex areas.  Unlike other gay places, I want to be open to all Adult Avatars Males and Females and to have people chatting in public,  not just some Avs just standing around cruising.   Cruising is fun and cool, but when it is all done in IMs it is dull.  When I do to these places I try to talk in public chat but most people are lost in thier IMs......Booooring

I always did well with home rentals,  I will have 6 small rentals with 500 prims,   3 big ones with 999 Prims,  will be charging 2 Lindens a prim a week.    Once I am done on ground level I might put in a mall in the sky or sky boxes to help bring in more lindens.  If i can get 3/4th of the sim paid for it would be great. I hope this works out

What Was Now is Gone

What took a month to build is now gone in hours,  a splendid city of Lannisport is now forever gone and my desire in running a role play sim.   I do have to say,  the players I got were great,   excellence role players, good writers and no drama, what could a sim owner can ask for.    One thing was I could not get a study flow of rp,  it was very sporadic and it was not just the players,  i was just as guilty too.   I did go out and dance and would spend my first our off of the sim to wake up.  I was hoping it would help prevent burn out like I had in gor.   One thing for a sim owner, he or she needs to be on sim all the time,  they need to have good support.  I started out with good support, but then my support needed a break which is ok, we all need it,  I need it.

My real life got crazy,  in danger of losing my job, but I got a transfer to another plant. I got a job,  it will be less pay and more hours.    I figured it out I will be making about 1000 dollars less a month, but good thing for the extra overtime as I will mostly will be making  it back.  As a result of this, I thought it would be best just to shut down Lannisport and do something new.  If I am not able to be online that much there is no way i would be running the sim proper.   I really wanted to keep the sim, so I am making Driftwood Estates, a clothing optional beach and home rentals that is on the naughty side : }.   I hope it works out well,  I would hate to lose the place and I always wanted to do something like this.... a Naked Misha is a Happy Misha

Pictures coming soon

Silence is not always golden

The last few days I been in straight Second Life and the reason for that,  People Talk and Chat in open public.
Gay Second Life is so silent, a lot of over sized Avatars standing around looking to fuck.  Cruising spots like Bodyworks or Hubs is the worst.   People just stand around, in there IMs looking for sex.   Places like Sprut nude beach is in the middle, what saves it is the events and only a few of us will chat there.   Don't get me wrong there are chatty places like Myst, but they are mostly busy at night when they have DJs or the new Boots beach.  The problem there it is always empty when I am online.

Back in the old day there were a few clubs where people dance all day at,  Blue Boy Club was one of them.  People would go and dance and chat make new friends.   Cruising spot like Hot'n Hung Men Nude Beach was a great place.  I loved it there,   there was all types of people, well over 18 that is,  did not matter if you were a human, furry or a fantasy creature.  All was welcome,  there was alot of open sex and open Chat.   People would talk in the old days, unlike now.

The sex is horrible,  very few people can emote outside of grunts or saying stuff like 'fuck me harder', 'fuck you are so tight', 'you like my cock in you, don't you',  crap like that.  That was something that attracted me to Gor,  the sex was so much better with a good role player, than some over sized monkey whose cock dose not match his skin.

Straight Places like Turtle Coast, a nudes beach,  see pic below, is full of open chat and fun.  Yes some the ladies are upset that I am a gay boy,  they think I am so cute.  It is nice to be able to dance, chat and have a good time without people up in my IMs just wanting to fuck.  I like to have sex as well, but sometimes it is nice to chat and just have fun too.  

I do like this set up they have at Turtle Coast.   It is 500 Lindens to join the group and you need to be in the group to enjoy the place.   I talked to them and they said it is to keep the horny noobies out.   Everyone there has nice Avatars, but i seen some that needs some work and in the cock to skin matching department too.  I have to say most of the AVS look good and yes even the women.

This sim is just a homestead,  it is always full.  I checked the traffic yesterday and it was over 18K and that is a homestead.  they do hvae sex spots too, which i see in use often, but on the main beach,  there is no sex, no clothing, and not hardons.   

Like in Gay Gor, Gay SL is far behind in the straights, but I am happy to report that the Isle of Scimitar has made great strides.   As a gor hater now and a few of the people who really made me hate gor is there. I will never set foot there.   If i was to see them I know I would get banned and will be my first banning but it will be well worth it,  I hate those fuckers,  I hope you know who you are, Topaz and Decius

It Must End

Well RL took a turn for the worst.  I might be laid off from work if I dont get transfered to a lower paying job.   The warehouse I work at will be closing with in the year. Slowly they well taking our business to other locations.  They say there will be some transfers and the other will get laid off.  I have 3 poeple under me and about 9 over me.  The last time we had this scare I had 20 under me at that time and now I have 3. They laid off 17 people, what really sucked that the Union told everyone they will still have a job.   Well I will see what happens and go from there.  One thing I do know is that I cannot support a role play sim and flip the whole tier.

When I was in gor, over half of the tier was covered with rentals.  I had no such luck in game of thrones.  i think i got a few renters but that is all.   I did post my sim for sale, build and all.  i hope someone will take it over.  i really hate to see it go.   If not,  maybe i can do a rental thing again and get most of the tier paid.  I really love having my own sim to play on.  I would hate to lose it and the homestead.

I been having a hard time even being on the sim,  it just hurts to much to see it and know that it will be gone.   I just cant handle being there.

things are getting better

After a few weeks of blah.... well more like a month,  things are getting better.  My mood is better too.  my rp has changed now i am the master of coin.   it is new for me and it has been enjoyable.  i been going around and collecting the  back taxes of the businesses that I have gave to players and taking it back to be resold.   This is my plan, Active players will keep their taxes paid and the players who become inactive will be in behind in the taxes, thus I can resale the business to people who want to be a active players on the sim.

There is apart of me that misses playing the slave,  running around naked, being sexy, flirty and just a plan old slut.   I been curbing those urges on earth and it helps some.  I got this to say about Gor role play:

I still do miss the friends I have made there,  I miss you much guys!, but I don't miss the role play, the drama, and just all the Gorean Elitist BS.

Unmotivated

As of late I feel very unmotivated,  i really should not have dont lannisport.  i just dont want to run thing anymore and just have some fun.  i should have just made Ushindi a sim for homes and make it slave friendly.  I do not miss gor i do miss playing a slave.   I dont know what to do but Gor is not an option.  I left it i left it for good

kinda pissed

I work really hard in tying to make Lannisport work,  i do put in a lot of time and effort let alone pay the $295 USD every month to pay the tier.   When I left gor i did know know what to do with the sim,  I was not sure if I was going to keep it.   Was I going to just rent homes or make a role play sim?  I even thought about bring back hot n'hung back.   But, I saw Game of Thrones on TV and I thought this is what role play should be about.   I gave it a shot,  Now i am thinking i made a mistake.  I though i was going to have good help who cared as much as I do.  I was wrong in this,  as i felt in gor.  I have a few people helping me out a lot,  and i thanks them for this, but out of my original people who were to help me make this grow, well lets say,  they are not as i hoped.  I am taking a few days off and i have a ok role play in St Leviathans boys college believe it or not.  Well i was the only one emoting,  but i had fun.    I dont worry about others emotes, at least i got to rp with someone.

In a bit of a mess

When things were going well, I had roles filled I knew who was doing what.   Now a lot of those people are not missing.  I am not sure what I have open.   I thing I do hate is when people fill out an application,  then interview them, they talk themselves up good saying they can do this and that and they have friends that might come.   I would think great and spend a lot of time setting them up.  Then they go poof and never see them again.   I have seen this in Gor as well.    I found out why one of the banner houses lords has not been on, and it is good that I know as it is something he cannot help and will be back.  That I can deal with, things happen, but when people just vanish and i have not a clue why really bugs me.    If one wants to no to rp here just let me know and I can find others who want their role and find those who do want to rp here.

Another thing,  I thought I had great friends who would help me out on this new adventure from the beginning.   Most of them are gone doing there own thing,  leaving me holding the bag so to say.  Now that Matt is back at his Mothers house, he will be able to help out more,  and I am very happy he is now fully out of gor.  I do need help on the sim.  One thing i am not good at is driving rp and making stories up.

Now for the good things,   We had a very good opening,  Soar Patrol was great:

The Wedding was fast and easy,  the ooc dance was ok.  I wish we had more people, but i was able to relax and have fun.

Outside of Game of Thrones,  DJ Thorn made me my own Gesture,  it really made me feel special,  thanks Thorn for that,  Misha

Alive then Dead

I thought things were going well,  good rp we were growing.  i went on a meter hunt and spent alot of time looking at them.  I wanted to give the larps system a try.   I thought it was worth a shot,  it offers character sheets, dice and combat system.   I want to give it a two week try,  but they all vanished.  Lannisport for the last few weeks has be almost a ghost town.   Few people come to rp,  our Banner houses are dead and Matt has stopped working on a banner house dice system.  saying what is the point in doing this work if the banner houses are empty.   Well when the new season of the show starts and things dont improve,  i just scrap the project it is not worth the 300 usd a month to pay in teirs on a empty sim

Goreans are Pussies

I been on a meter search ever sence the maker of the LCS vanished again.  I find it hard to use a this system when a issue comes and no way to fix it.   The LCS meter giver stoped working after the lindens did an update.  the Meter works but no new player can get a hud and that is a problem.   It is really sad too,  it was just starting to take off in the gorean sims,  it is really a better system than the GM.   I been looking around for meters, MCM, spellfire and its off shoots, and the larps and along with the LCS none of them have splash, rapid firing arrows and a limited arrow supply.  All which the Goreans cry about,  all they say they need to have.   They are such Children with their crying and bitching.   They got to have their bad ass bows so they can pretend to be bad asses.   The more I am out of gor the more I HATE it and the more I think I wasted 3 years of my life for this waste of role play